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05 June 2007 @ 11:52 pm
So yea, this whole single thing is going to kill me. I still love my ex and want him alot. But, I also really like one of my close friends. Problem? I don't want to ruin the friendship because he's the only person that I can talk to about anything and he'll listen. I also kind of like this other person, but there isn't much there. So yea. And I'm probably going to end up doin something stupid and hurting someone I love which is going to REALLY suck. Why do people have to have emotions? And why is it that right when I break up with Matt everybody and there momma starts talking to me. x_x I don't want another relationship right now because the only reason I would be in it is for the comfort of it. I just like the stability of being able to call and talk to somebody or go chill with em and snuggle and watch TV. But I don't want to because I still love Matt. I'm not over him yet... I'll always love him, it's just going to take a while to actually get over him. I just know that I'm going to end up doing something stupid though and either hurting Matt, my friend, or myself. x_x Eh, I guess I'll just play it by ear though.
But now I'm about to go to bed now because I have to wake up early. Night kids. Hope your love lifes are better than mine...

I'm feelin kinna...: indescribableindescribable
30 May 2007 @ 01:09 pm
Hello all! Well, my summer hasn't been the greatest, but there has been some resolution. Me and my boyfriend broke up... He's out of school and working and about to go to college and next year I'll just be a junior in high school x_x I just figured it was best for both of us. *shrugs*
Moving on! I started the AHEC summer program yesterday. It's where you basically get to go play doctor for 3 weeks. w00t. I get to wear scrubs though and look really funny and out of place in them. oh well!
I am also considering... "turning"(?) furry. I still havent decided species though. I'm torn between wolf or unicorn. x_x They're both so pretty and just great. I hate being indecisive...
But yea, that's basically it. Well, today is my brother's birfday and yesterday was Tyler's birfday. Yay birfday! Mine's not for a while though. I get to go all summer without a lisence and then, my birfday would fall on the first day of school. x_x Eh, oh well.
And I'm done now..

I'm feelin kinna...: numbnumb
Mah Music: DJ Ferret's Underground Club Mix
18 May 2007 @ 11:42 pm
Hi kids! Well, I know it's been a while since I've updated, but here we go.

Yesterday: Field Day!!! It was only tons and tons of fun!! I jumped in a big blow up Dora the Explorer jumpeh thing. Then I went and layed in the grass cause I could hardly breath. Damn my out of shapeness... But yea. I got water dumped on me and attacked... I have bite mark bruises on my leg... lol Blah blah. Went back to class like 10 minutes before school is out. *Bell rings* Go with Tyler to find his madre so we can get to mi casa. Go to my house. Get dressed. Blah. We FINALLY leave Columbia at like 5:45ish. Thank God we found the Centurytel Center fast and didn't get lost. Ok, now the concert can be summed up in two words: Fucking Awesome!!!!
It was the greatest thing I've ever seen in my life. Aside from Maynard's God-like voice and amazing guitar and drums to accompany, there was a sweet fuckin lazer light show goin on in the midst! It was some trippy ass shit but it was great!! I'd love to do that every weekend...

And now, today. Today was graduation. My babii graduated. I cried and hugged everybody. It was sad but happy at the same time. I love times like that<3 Then we went to Grayson seafood to eat with his family. I love his family. They're so disfunctional. lol

And now, I sit here sunburnt typin this. Yea, I got burnt at the field day thing. Apparently bein in the sun for like 2 1/2 hours is too much for my paleness. *Shrugs* Oh well. These past two days have been probably the most memorable of the year. I love times like this. I prolly sound like somebody out of a cheesy teen film but I don't care. lol My life is great right about now<3 And tomorrow I get to go to a crawfish boil ^_^ Hopefully I'll be able to eat some despite the huge ulcer I have. =( Oh well, it'll be fun anyway. But I'm off to do... I dunno. I might go to sleep... or not. Who knows?

I'm feelin kinna...: complacentcomplacent
15 April 2007 @ 02:10 pm
Hey kids!! Yes, I am alive. I just haven't posted in a while cuz my internet's been dead and I've been uber busy. But yea. My spring break has been great! I've been hangin with my friends all week and it's been so fun. And some time, hopefully Saturday, me, Tyler, Fluff, Emily, and Kori are gonna play D&D. w00t. I love you Tyler!! ^_^
And today I'm sick. Kori and mah step-mom have been sick and I caught it. Right when it starts to get pretty outside I would get sick. x_x

Me n Kori bein cool.

Me, Em, and Ko at school.

And that's about all I'm gonna post cuz I'm lazeh. =P But yea that's it... Kbye

I'm lost! Oh, wait I'm in...: mi casa
I'm feelin kinna...: sicksick
20 March 2007 @ 06:55 pm
Hellooooo!! Well yes, this week we began the grueling GEE test. Which is really not very difficult at all... I don't understand why people stress about standardized tests, they're the easiest. Better than a Biology test by far. x_x But yea we've only got 2 more days left of it and we're done. I think I could stand testin for another few weeks cuz we ain't doin nothin in our other classes, except Algebra II of course.

Saturday I went to Literary Rally in Spanish and I actually placed!! Second!! =D I'm so proud of me!! I didn't think I was gonna place at all. Not I get to go to state literary rally. That should be interesting to say the least. lol

Tomorrow me madrastra leaves for Kentucky to visit her kin-folk for about a week. So now every evening and every mornin I get to play momma. x_x She's gonna return to only one child cuz the other one is SOO gonna die.

Ummm...Oh!! Really great site I found! www.goodgoth.com It's really great and has some Victorian Goth clothing and just great stuff in general. Eyeshadows and boots I especially love. <3

Today I also got invited to this Art and Science exhibit dilly at a college in Monroe which is like 30 minutes away. Some of my good friends were invited n we're all ridin together so it should be a blast! Expect pictures!! If I can get a camera battery by then... *shrugs*

But yea, my week has been quite eventful. =D And next Tuesday is mine and Matt's one year anniversary!!! And that weekend we're goin to prom. I love life. ^_^

Well, that's an update for ya! But I should be back postin again later. Love you guyz!!


BTW I've got a MySpace for all you unLJers like me that don't really update much lol.

Aaaaaand! New picatures!!

Moi edited. I love that pic!

And another pic I like. kbye!
I'm lost! Oh, wait I'm in...: mi casa
14 March 2007 @ 08:56 pm
Hellooooooooo!! ^_^ I'm in a great freakin mood omg!!!! teehee Yea, I'm hyper yo. I got a straightener finally. Mine brokeded a long time ago... OH WELL!!
Yes, well right now I have 2 essays to write. One, I was supposed to have written Friday but instead I talked... =D
Fweeeee!! Tomorrow is the last day of remediation! w00t! But that means next week I gotta take the GEE test. x_x oh well, I'm good at standardized testin so it'll be fine.
Yea, I'm a dork. =P lol
And yea that's about it....RaWr! =D
kk bye

I love yoooou! (Yes you Tyler-face n Sugarbutt!!) teehee
I'm lost! Oh, wait I'm in...: Yes
I'm feelin kinna...: hyperhyper
12 March 2007 @ 04:42 pm
I gots chicken!! w00t! *Does dance* I love me sum chicken ^_^
But scha. I've gotten most of the crap I need for prom. So excited!
And in 15 more days me and Matt will have been together for one year! Yayz! I love him <3 teehee I shall post a picture!

I love that dork. =P lol

Aww now chicken's all gone. =( OH WELL!
And that's an update basically....So yea.
I'm lost! Oh, wait I'm in...: You pants
I'm feelin kinna...: bouncybouncy
02 March 2007 @ 05:37 pm
Hello kiddies! Todays topic is: Whores. They talk to your boyfriend and claim that they never told anybody that "you were about to breakup with him and she was "talkin" with him". No of course not. Even after you confront her and tell her you're going to kick her ass if she talks to him again she still does. So now, you wanna fight her,but she's too much of a puss to let her ass-kicking occur. Doncha love em? Yea, me either.
So yea, that's my day. Well, actually my day was pretty good aside from the fact that I fell down today in the middle of the hallway... But yea, it was ok until I saw that fuckin whore talkin to my boyfriend. So now, I'm pissed at him for talkin to her after I told him what I'd her. And I want to fuckin beat her face in for not takin what I said seriously and talkin to him anyway.
I also can't go to my bestfriend's birthday party tonight. I wasn't really listenin to what my step-mom was so, so obviously I didn't relay the information that she'd told me to. So I can't do anything this weekend cause of my inability to listen, or you could look at it as my ability to block things out. *shrugs* Oh well.
On a happier note, though, I made all A's and one B on my report card. I'm kinna mad though cuz the B was a 94. Only one point away from an A. That's worse than makin a low B. But scha. I guess I'm through for now. I'll post later when another significant event occurs. Later.

I'm lost! Oh, wait I'm in...: Hell
I'm feelin kinna...: angryangry
25 February 2007 @ 10:27 pm
Helloooo. Wow this weekend was GREAT! I went with our Speech team to their tournament at Parkway High School. It was so fun! I really should've joined last year. A bunch of people from my school did really good. So neat.

Seth n Peigen chillin in the room

Emily "fixing" my iPod

I also have some more pics but I'm too impatient to wait on them to load so yea. Well, I'm done for now. Bout to go read or something. Night kiddos.

I'm lost! Oh, wait I'm in...: yes
I'm feelin kinna...: tiredtired
21 February 2007 @ 07:00 pm
Hi. Yes, once again I am procrastinating. It's what I do. I have to write a 250 word essay for this summer program I'm applying for that's due in two days to the office.... So yea.
Current Reads: Phantom of the Opera. Not real far into it, but it's pretty neat so far.
And I believe I'm about to watch the movie...

I shall update at a later time. BYE!!!

I'm feelin kinna...: bouncybouncy
Mah Music: Music of the Night